A Beginners Guide to Re-Starting Your Hobby Blog: Step 1: Put on some Beyoncé. Step 2: Start somewhere. Write, create, or share something. It doesn't have to be good, but you do have to hit "publish." Here's my go at it. (You've had your fair warning: it may not be good.)
Hi there. And hello, September, even though we're already mid-way through. I'm not exactly sure how this keeps happening. Life is blurry. It's flying. My internal calendar is still convinced it's April, even though the days are getting shorter and the trees are shedding their tresses instead of the other way around. Working in fashion does not help at all, when you are constantly working 6-8 months ahead of the season. Fall is so last January. Christmas has already happened. Spring market is so last month. Unhealthy.
Why am I saying this? As always when I turn to writing, usually it's to get something on the record—to force myself to explain my feelings so that I, too can understand them. This is written-word therapy. What I've ascertained so far is that I've been busy, yes. This is a fact. It is also a fact that I sometimes make myself busy on purpose so that I can use it as an excuse to not do things I don't want to do. Like write thank you notes (how rude), return emails (how rude), read a book, take a day off or travel (how rude to myself).
What I should say is that I've been distracted. I have intentionally taken on more things than necessary, whether it be projects, causes, tasks, deadlines, events. They continue to fill my days and my mental capacity to the point where I purposely do not leave time to think about the days going by, certain relationships or my place in the world. There are days when I have no checkpoints outside of my agenda. And yes, I enjoyed the distraction for a while. I usually do. For some reason, this practice of continuous distraction is ingrained in the modern lives we lead.
But here I find myself well into in September. I feel like I missed summer in a way, but regrets have no value here. I'm sitting in a quiet room, listening to rain fall (and Beyoncé on Spotify) and enjoying a cool breeze. I'm taking stock of things physical, emotional and mental and despite the past few months, feeling pretty good. Take time for yourself, people. It matters.
Given the absence of new posts this summer, I don't know how many of you are still out there. But if you are, thanks for sticking around. I'll continue to not be the blogger I once was, but on the (hopefully more-frequent) occasion that I stop to check myself, this seems to be the first place I want to turn. It's funny, I never thought about my blog in this way before, but they can be valuable just for the purpose of processing and stripping away the distractions (depending on how one uses it, of course.)
Glad to be back, in some small way...
Featured images: 1. Sincerely Jules being the beauty she is 2. Dancing Cranes by Simone Sbaraglia 3. Rebecca Atwood's Dashes (Midnight Black) fabric by the yard (yay! Congrats again on the new line!) 4. an "in my bag" feature by Mija